Almost March...

Am watching the Oscars and I am in love with Cate Blanchett's dress. See here:

It is phenomenal no? This is beyond cool and totally sticks out of the safer ,although very nice, fare. Anyway. February is almost over. I have one interview and one rejection. No surprise on the rejection, it was the main outlier of my group as the research interest was different. Anyways, I just realized since my visit is later in the month, I might already have heard back from my other schools by the time I interview there! One of my schools (Chicago) is really hard to get into...and I don't think my grades will make the cut. If I am offed I would not be surprised at all. I am surprised really that I have not heard anything back yet...

Blarg. I just want to know. I need to stop eating that's what I need to do. Eating out of boredom, nervousness, and sometimes, yes, hunger.

Blarggy blarg blarg

I have discovered a show on TLC called My Strange Addiction. It is becoming my addiction! So weird how some people develop some of these obsessions! There are the regular ones which are not too far fetched, i.e. tanning, shopping, even wearing fur costumes. Those are strange but I have heard about those before! It is intriguing for me that the oddest ones involve eating something. Like couch cushions, Comet, chalk, toilet paper (clean!), etc. Eating is a necessary part of life but it can be very emotional experience for a lot of people. I love food, I love good food, rare food, expensive food. But I don't binge eat, I don't eat my feelings, I don't withhold food...or any other combination of the more common eating disorders out there.
And then there is the girl who eats chalk. I think all those weird eating things probably have the same emotional roots as the common eating disorders but to fixate on one item to eat, and on something that is not even food! That is really out there!
I really felt for the lady that ate Comet cleanser. She was so nice you could really tell she was a lovely person. And after her trip to the dentist she had a sincere break through and if the caption at the end is correct she did stop eating it. And that really made me happy.
Anyways, I should walk the babies now...

February is a short month!

So I have started helping out at my sister's vet clinic to keep from going crazy and to learn some stuff.
1. Drilling teeth creates a weird smell (it's 10% dentals this month!)
2. Dogs will eat anything! (Ice packs included....)
3. Always good to have bottles of lotion at random tables as there is a lot of hand washing at this place!

I love it! It is so nice to work with animals all day! Every day ANIMALS! Not that I want to change my career or anything but I must say, it's hard to feel crappy about life when you are around them all the time. Of course it is sad. When working I spied a room that looked a lot nicer than the other examining rooms. Nice wall color, couch, painting on the wall...Why is this room so tranquil compared to the rest?? It's the room where pets are put to sleep...I was walking around and saw they were doing an ultrasound of an old cat. It had a big ginormous mass in its belly. I didn't ask more but when I saw some of the lights were out in one part of the clinic I asked what was happening and someone said an animal was being out to sleep - I look over at the nice room and the door is now closed...
So weird, I just saw that cat. I guess there was nothing they could do, and it was in pain...
Very very sad. I have Thursdays off so today I spent with the babies and took them on a nice walk. It makes me not want to ever move out and leave them behind!

Adele - Rolling in the Deep

Am very much obsessed with this song right now:

Saw it played in a trailer for I am Number Four. Now I kind of want to see it.

Mid-February

I remember back when i was first applying I thought maybe the total pool of applicants is like 30...or 50. Flash forward to now after I have scoped out some grad school forums....the number is closer to 100. Sometimes more. Ack!
Oh well, so far I haven't been rejected by anyone yet...I really hope to hear back from my US schools but it is great to go to Austria for an interview next month! I already have my ticket and am brushing up on my current literature so I don't look like a total doofus when I get there!
I have starting reading a lot about the country. In general it seems like a great place of culture and history!  But I am also super excited to see my family in France!!! I wish I could've made it so I did the interview first then had a week to relax in Paris, but alas - the way the dates worked out and my job (!) I really could not stay after the interview :( So, it is one week in France followed by 3 days in Austria!

I will miss the babies when I leave for work in March...come Fall I will be somewhere else for grad school, somewhere far far away!
Anyways, enjoy the ridiculousness of this:

Chuggin' along

Well. I can't say I am in the best mood right now. I should be. But it has been the weirdest 24 hours...
But today started great! I woke up and not 10 minutes after I receive a phone call from a really long number. I almost don't answer but seeing as how I should be getting phone calls from unfamiliar numbers now I pick up...and it is someone with an accent and at first I don;t make out much, then I hear 'Austria.'


Austria?!? I applied to a school there! So once I figure out it is someone from the school we proceed to talk a bit and they ask me why I applied there and I mention two people whose research I am interested in and the person on the phone goes, "Oh, I am So-and-So" one of the people I name checked in my SOP!! Woooooo! Well, it was not a long phone call and while I'm talking I am thinking why are they calling me. Uli said I would hear about interviews in mid-Feb...and sure enough at the end she invites me to their official interview visit!!! Yes! Should receive an email for more updates! I can't believe it my first interview!
I was shaking when I got off the phone! This day has gone by so fast. That plus the starfish name a friend named for me has made me soooo excited!!!


And of course I am happy and I text everyone I know. Everyone. *sigh* Tre sad the end of things.
Oh but I have so much to be happy for. I get over things fast. Always have. I bounce back, like trends from the 80s.

One More

Breathing in...and out...
everything is going to be ok...something will happen and you will handle it...don't forget to floss.

Cute!

 Someone needs to take the internet away from me...

WHHYYYY GOD WHYYYYYY

I have had 2 months to get used to not being with him. It never would have worked...in fact it might have been so stress inducing it would have ruined us...So officially as of around 1 am this morning - I am single. This sucks.
Not that I feel that I need to be with anyone...really just him.

Oh but I know it is for the best. Right now is not a stable time for having a significant other. For me or him. But it still hurts but the great part is that I know we are in a good place where we can still be good friends. And maybe one day down the line...when the universe aligns the planets in the axis of Jupiter and the stars glow green in a dusky velvet sky...maybe things will works out.

For now I will try to keep busy until I hear back from grad schools. It is February 6th today! I should hear back from a job this week too....Ok goal, I will have acquired a second field research job by the end of the this!

Ok going to breathe. Going to be fine. Food. Food is friend.

Was this because of what I said about bananas the other day?

So I have been awake since around 5 am due to a cramp in my side. This is the longest lasting MF I have eva experienced!! Really I will eat more bananas Universe just make it go away so I can sleep!!!
I'm sorry I said banana flavored things are yucky!